adoption

I recently enquired about adoption and was sent out a date to meet with social workers dealing with adoption in my area. I cancelled the meeting. Im scared that if we go ahead on this journey that we'll never focus on trying for a biological family. Despite all the information I have and knowing that making a baby is going to be nothing short of a miracle, I cant give up hope. If hope is gone then what do we have left?

I'll still consider adoption in the future but for the moment I think getting my head around PCOS is enough